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The Backyard Bystander


With summer full on, now that the solstice has arrived, I’m spending more time in the backyard or I’m longing to head out there as I plunk away on my computer whilst gazing out my office window.

The backyard is a playground of activity as birds, beasties, and bugs take advantage of the season.

Not long ago (actually longer ago than I care to admit), the backyard served as a playground for our kids. Running, yelling, camping, goofing in the inflatable pool were all part of summer fun. I’m still finding airsoft pellets in the yard as I garden, leftovers from the skirmishes the kids had with friends.

These days the backyard is quieter and I am in the role of bystander instead of being a referee or activities coordinator. I’ve even stepped away from yard manager, having settled on the compromise of enjoying the cultivated wilderness of flowers cohabiting with the forest.

Being a backyard bystander has its advantages. For one, more wildlife appearances.

A bevy of birds, a rambling raccoon, a swish of squirrels, and possibly a bear visit are part of the scenery.

I’m especially enjoying the variety of birds. We have several feeders and I rigged up a giant pine cone that gets smeared with crunchy peanut butter.

I had no idea birds enjoyed pb so much. Juncos, chickadees, nuthatches, sparrows all clamor for a turn surfing on the cone.

Lately a newcomer arrived, and this visitor totally perplexed us as to its identity.

A quandary

It doesn’t have a particular markings nor is its shape helpful in identification. Mature? Juvenile?

We think it might be a fox sparrow. Any guesses would be appreciated.

Any other backyard bystanders out there?

Bard Bits: Midsummer Muchness


Recently our little town ran a big event that drew in over 9,000 over the weekend: Ren Fair, where a celebration of Renaissance takes place. There are jousting knights, meandering minstrels, dazzling dancers, and of course, Queen Elizabeth I strolls among her subjects. The best part is how much of the crowd dons appropriate costumery. And there is a huge range of interpretation. Purists huff at the elf ears that many people wear, saying it’s not representative of the era, but a wag a finger and spout a differing opinion in defense of the fairy folk traipsing among the attendees.

“Ah, but fairies represent the imaginative offerings from Shakespeare’s Midsummer Night’s Dream.”

There is no denial or rebuttal, and I silently rack a discussion point, vowing to find my fairy within for next year’s faire.

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Another celebration of Midsummer was watching The Summer Book with Glenn Close last night. The film is based on Tove Jansson’s book, and it is a sensitive, quiet portrayal of a family celebrating life as they cope with death. Tove Jansson is famous for her Moomin books, which I read as a child, and they are still popular today.

In the film, Glenn Close plays the aged, wise grandmother who serves as the bridge between her grieving son and his six-year-old daughter, Sophia. While there isn’t much dialogue, when words are expressed, they have great significance. The tradition of spending summer at the family cabin is definitely affected by the recent death of Sophia’s mother, yet Glenn, as the stalwart grandmother, perseveres to keep going for Sophia’s sake.

At one point the family celebrates Midsummer, complete with flower crowns and fireworks, despite the rainy day. The symbolism is poignant as the father attempts to light the bottle rockets, but the damp weather has prevented two of three rockets to ignite.

Midsummer in the US is not typically celebrated with the gusto found in European countries such as England and in Scandinavia. However, it is a nice calendar marker that summer as basically begun, and that is a quiet celebration in itself.

Group of people dancing around a flower-adorned maypole at a lakeside festival in traditional Swedish clothing
People joyfully dance around a decorated maypole during a Swedish Midsummer festival near a lake. This would be a party worth dropping in for a bit.

Really Good Reads:


Open book with text 'Reading Challenge Sparking Joy & Imagination!' and 'Reading Challenge Explore The World!' with colorful fireworks emerging from it
Reading Challenge completed!

As of June 8th, I hit my yearly goal. Still not sure how I read 101 books since January. I think it’s because I have stopped playing Angry Birds. Just a thought.

I don’t remember how I came across Goodreads, yet it has made a huge impact on my reading life. Not only am I able to look up books, I can read reviews before committing to a book, but more importantly I can keep track of the books I’ve read. It’s disconcerting how many books I have started, wondering why the plot sounds familiar. Goodreads reminds me I’ve read it before, usually about three years ago.

You’re right. I should remember my books. I should also remember all my former students’ names, especially when they remember me when we surreptitiously meet in stores, at the library, sometimes in restaurants, but I fail at that as well. Too bad there isn’t a Goodteach, where I could log in so I can quickly look my students up, then again there are probably concerns about data collecting.


Onward–

Goodreads also helps me in reading choices as I deliberate upon a book that catches my eye.

Ratings and reviews can make a difference; however, while I acknowledge they are helpful and can sway my decision in whether or not to add a book to my TBR list, or my book bag, when it comes to writing a review I have my own system.

Goodreads uses a 5 star rating system with the following definitions:

1 star

1 star – didn’t like it

2 stars

 2 stars – it was OK

3 stars

 3 stars – liked it

4 stars

 4 stars – really liked it

5 stars

5 stars – it was amazing

Since I began the Goodreads Reading Challenge several years ago I have developed my own rating system:

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ 5 stars–memorable, highly recommend, can’t wait to share this find with others

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️4 stars–likable, a couple of aspects were bothersome (e.g. characters, plot development, writing style, etc.)

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ 3 stars–read it, although skip read some parts due to triggers, or parts were somewhat boring or redundant, or the book rankles my verisimilitude tolerance (I leave the rating blank since I dislike leaving negative commentary)

⭐️ ⭐️ 2 stars–if a book is just okay I usually don’t finish reading it which means no review and if I don’t read the book how can I justify leaving a review? It gets marked Did Not Finish so I won’t get tempted again (which does happen—a great title tends to lure me in).

⭐️ 1 star–some Goodreads readers save this rating for books they hate. Why did they even read it then. I know right away if I don’t like a book, usually by the first couple of pages. Honestly, if I didn’t read the book, I simply mark it as a DNF and leave no review.

Do you have a rating system?

Also, do ratings and reviews influence whether you read the book?

Word Nerd: Gosh, it’s a Hawk


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When a book grabs my attention, I tend to go a smidge overboard in experiencing it. Such is the case with Helen Macdonald’s memoir about training a a goshawk she named Mabel. I am immersing myself in Macdonald’s H is for Hawk through her book, a BBC documentary about her training a different goshawk, rereading it through the thoroughly enjoyable audiobook, and I just finished watching the amazing Claire Foy in the film based on the book.

While I am familiar with the ancient sport of falconry, Macdonald’s book shows how little I actually know about it. For one, there are very specific terms I needed to learn in order to better understand her work with Mabel. As a bonus, the Word Nerd side of me discovered there many everyday expressions that are derived from falconry.

A fascination of terms (some apply specifically to birds of prey):

Bate: When a bird flaps its wings while perched, mimicking flight. It’s a restless action.

Stoop:  When a bird folds its wings into its body, which makes them more aerodynamic, creating the ability to move through the air much faster to catch their prey.  

Imprint:  When a bird is raised by someone other than their mother. Rescued fledglings will often be raised by humans, nurturing them until they can be released. 

Tiercel:  A male falcon.  

Soar:  When a bird “surfs” on a thermal of air, resting between flying.  

Diurnal: Hunting during the daytime.  

Nocturnal:  Hunting during the nighttime. 

Crepuscular:  Hunting during dusk and/or dawn.  

Quarry: Game that is hunted by birds. 

Flush:  When dogs cause the game to rush out from its cover so it can be hunted. 

Pass:  When a bird flies with the enticement of a lure or when the male presents food to a female during the mating process.

Casting:  Securing a bird in a manner that minimizes the stress of the action to the bird, and is also the reference to the bird’s pellet. 

Pellet:  The indigestible parts of a bird’s prey, regurgitated up as a small ball. 

Lure:  A small horseshoe-shaped device attached at the end of the line to attract the attention of the bird, usually decorated with feathers.

Swivel:  The metal object that turns and spins while securing the bird’s jesses.

Jesses: These are leather straps that hold the bird while they perch on the fist.

 Fist: The falconer wears a leather glove to protect the hand and forearm, and this is where the bird perches. 

Coping:  The act of filing back a bird’s beak. 

Manning:  The time spent with a bird as a means of getting the bird accustomed to the falconer’s presence, with the goal of gaining the bird’s trust.  

Rouse: The act of a bird raising its feathers and shaking them, usually in doing so they are shaking off debris, realigning their feathers, or trapping heat.

Now for some everyday expressions derived from falconry:

Under the thumb: Falconers maintain control of their birds by holding the bird’s leash under their thumb while the bird is perched on their fist. Today’s meaning implies having control over someone, not necessarily in a beneficial manner. “She had her personal assistant firmly under her thumb.”

Hoodwinked: To keep a bird calm a small hood was placed over their head, getting tricked into thinking it was night, and it would get into a restful state. The modern use of this expression means getting tricked or scammed into doing something such as, “I thought that link was from my bank. It turns out I was hoodwinked and lost a significant amount of money.”

Fed up: A bird that eats too much will have no incentive to hunt and is unwilling to work with the falconer. Today, if someone is “fed up” that usually means they have reached their limit and will no longer cooperate.

Wrapped around their little finger. To provide extra security beyond holding the leash, a falconer might wrap the strand of line around their little finger, so even if the bird broke free it would still remain tethered. Today, if someone uses this expression it indicates the person is under control by another person as in “No worries, I have my dad wrapped around my little finger.” SEE: “Under the thumb.”

If you enjoy memoirs about animals and humans interacting together, I highly recommend Helen Macdonald’s H is for Hawk. Do read the book before watching the film (streamed through Kanopy). The audiobook adds the dimension of hearing Helen’s emotional journey.

I would enjoy hearing your thoughts on the book!

Reader Roundup: May 2026


Not to sound boastful, but this month marks over 90 books read since January. That does sound like boasting, doesn’t it? My usual Goodreads goal is 101 books. I usually squeak over that goal but within days, not months.

I’m not sure how I’ve read so many books this year. Granted being retired is a factor. Then again, I’ve been retired going on four years and haven’t hit this number.

And I do more than read. Really. I write in the mornings, volunteer at the library, do some yard work, do even less housework. Maybe I will log how much time I actually do read. Then again why would I do that—scrutinizing something I enjoy would smush the joy.

Anyway—

Here are the five star reads for May:

H is for Hawk by Helen Macdonald

When Helen Macdonald’s beloved father died unexpectedly, she dealt with her grief by withdrawing into the world of the goshawk. As an experienced falconer Helen Macdonald knew the challenge she was taking on. Her time with Mabel is a compelling memoir, as well as it is nature writing at its most stellar.

Bibliophile by Jane Mount

The book is aptly titled as it is a visual and textual feast for those who devour books about books.

The Boy from the Sea by Garrett Carr

Set in 70s and 80 in a small Irish fishing village, readers follower the Bonnar family through the first-person plural narrator observations, which seemingly represents the village as an omniscient chorus. The descriptive passages, the ebb and flow of people’s lives create a unique tale, one that, even though it centers around fishing, is fascinating. Leastwise the audiobook version is, with the reader’s lilting style of relating the story.

The Eyes & the Impossible by Dave Eggers

A winner of the 2024 Newberry Award, it is one of those books that adults hope that children will read because it is a unique with its philosophical, amusing, clever, and thought provoking format. The illustrations add a creative dimension to the story.

Be sure to check out Ethan Hawke’s audiobook reading—it’s an extraordinary performance. A definite recommend for anyone, especially a family summer car trip.

I am looking forward to spending some time in the hammock reading from my growing TBR list. I am also looking forward to some consistent days of sun instead of this April hangover weather of five minutes of sun, four hours of gray, repeat. Let alone the 7-15 mph winds.

What are your summer reading plans? Are there titles/genres you are looking forward to checking out?

From Dearth to Birth


As dedicated bird and squirrel (by default) fans we enjoy the variety of feathered (and furry) friends that visit our yard.

Juncos, chickadees, doves, nuthatches, sparrows, robins are stock characters while seasonal guest visitors such as warblers, flickers, jays, goldfinches, hummingbirds, grosbeaks, and siskins drop in, adding both drama and entertainment to the landscape.

Sometimes, right around the beginning of May our bird activity suddenly vanishes. So distressing! Well, we know why when suddenly we see moments like in this video:

Snack time!

The birds have been busy at home!

I’m amused how mom bird pulls away for a few seconds to get a couple of bites in before her “toddlers” cue for a handout. I noticed her fledglings are quite capable of feeding themselves but pester her anyway.

Reminds me of my long ago days of my own fledgling feeding times.

Any springtime feathery episodes to share?

Word Nerds: Run, you clever word run


Oxford English Dictionary editors recently revealed that “run” has indeed become the single word with the most potential meanings in all of English, boasting no fewer than 645 different usage cases for the verb form alone.

No, I will not run the list, but here is the link for you to run over and peruse. Since you might run out of time reading all the definitions, this is merely a glance. Enjoy.

See how that verb runs…

Woman running fast on coastal road with ocean and sunset in background
The scenic road, that runs along the coastal shore, attracts many runners.

How Cliché: All is Well with “W”


Well well, we are running out of alphabet and clichés. Fortunately, there is a wellspring of “W” entries to peruse:

Wait on hand and foot: dating back to the 1300s when servants and servitude was common, the expression implies serving a person completely, attending to their every need, often to an excessive or servile degree. Today the phrase is often dished with a serving of sarcasm.

Person in suit with stacked encyclopedia books as head, wearing glasses and surrounded by scientific icons

Walking encyclopedia refers to someone having a vast knowledge about many diverse subjects. One of my favorite reads was the Encyclopedia Brown series—that neighborhood detective was one smart kid.

Walk on eggs: something that is quite a challenge and serves as a cautionary when around certain people who are considered sensitive i.e. they easily get hurt feelings or worse, they quickly give into anger (because their feelings are thin as eggshells?).

The walls have ears: a bizarre imagining, yet with all the sneaky tech out these days it is so true in how people could be listening. There is a story about Dionysius, the Greek tyrant. He ordered an ear-shaped cave constructed so he could listen to what his prisoners said while he was in another room. There are other instances where listening posts are created, including the Louvre in Paris.

Warts and all: while warts aren’t lovely, they are a part of life since perfection is often just an ideal. This saying is all about accepting someone or something with all its faults. Allegedly Oliver Cromwell, a British military/politician/dictator, remarked to the portraitist, Sir Peter Lely, that he wanted all his pimples, warts, roughness painted as he appeared or he would not pay him. Art did imitate life in this instance.

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Waste one’s breath: to talk, only to realize no one is listening can be frustrating. The phrase dates back to the sixteenth century when it was thought a person’s breath could be saved as in “save your breath.” Tennyson is credited with saying “I trust I have not wasted breath” in his 1850 “In Memoriam.”

A watched pot never boils: impatiently waiting for something to happen does not quicken matters. Anyone who has actually waited for a pot of water to boil can attest to that idea.

Weak as a kitten: being defenseless. The original early nineteenth century expression is “weak as a cat,” although the cats I’ve known aren’t that weak, lazy perhaps, but not weak. We’ve seen cats go up against dogs, bears, lions on YouTube, right?

Woman smiling and pointing at red heart patch on olive green knitted sweater sleeve

Wear one’s heart on one’s sleeve: to openly show one’s feelings; to be emotionally vulnerable can be traced back to the days of knights and ladies–a lady would offer her favor (usually a ribbon) to a favored knight in a joust to openly show her support. Shakespeare bettered this expression in Othello, “But I will wear my heart upon my sleeve for daws to peck at.”

Wear out one’s welcome: to prolong one’s stay past polite acceptability is a risk when visiting. As the old saying goes: “After three days fish and guests are equally stale.” There is a modern updated version of this saying. It makes me wonder how in Austen’s day parties of people would stay two weeks or a month at someone’s country house. They didn’t have Febreze back then to lighten the air. They probably refrained from serving fish.

There are scads of “W” clichés still to unpack. Which ones should be included for next time?

Reader Roundup: April 2026


April is a fickle month with on and off again weather. There were enough inclement days to rack up some serious reading time. April is also Poetry month, Shakespeare’s birthday, and an emphasis on libraries and librarians.

James Herriot’s Treasury for Children by James Herriot

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A lovely way to introduce young readers to the delightful stories of the world’s favorite Yorkshire veterinarian.

The Boy Who Was Raised by Librarians by Carla Morris, illustrated by Brad Sneed

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A fun addition to books emphasizing how impacting libraries and librarians can be on a young reader.

Shakespeare: The Man Who Pays the Rent by Judi Dench and Brenden O’Hea

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For those who only know Judi Dench from film roles such as “M” from James Bond have missed out on her first career as a stage actress, primarily with the Royal Shakespeare Company. From Ophelia to Cleopatra she played most of Shakespeare’s roles for women.

In this audiobook memoir Dame Judi reveals her thoughts and experiences about her career with Shakespeare. Presented as a conversational podcast between Brendan O’Hea and Dench listeners are treated to frank, thoughtful, even randy recollections about the power of Shakespeare’s words. As a bonus treat listeners hear anecdotes about actors Dench has worked with: Anthony Hopkins, Kenneth Branagh, Laurence Oliver, as well as backstage shenanigans like the time she almost went on stage without her skirt.

Accomplished actress, Barbara Flynn, reads for Judi Dench and emulates her phrasing, impish wit, and randy interjections amazingly well. At the end is a conversation with O’Hea and Dench that is a delightful addition.

Wild About Books by Judy Sierra illustrated by Marc Brown

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What happens when the bookmobile ends up at the zoo? A picture book filled with lively images and a rhyming text that entertains young readers with how animals learned to love reading. Very fun and a good pick for Library Week.

Ordinary Grace by William Krueger

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From the first sentence the reader is informed that death will define the story. The author then hands the story over to thirteen year old Frank, who is on the cusp of launching out of childhood, trying to grasp on to the nebulous world of adults. Frank, though a pastor’s kid, swears, flirts with adventurous undertakings, but is loyal to his family, especially his older sister Ariel and Jake, his shadow and little brother.

The title reflects the calm and wisdom of patriarch Nathan, who exudes Atticus Finch in how he handles tragedies that come his way as pastor, father, friend, and husband.

A richly told coming-of-age story that is reminiscent of To Kill a Mockingbird and Grisham’s A Painted House in that the narrator relates events beyond childhood, providing events with the eyes of innocence yet with the perspective of an adult.

With the good weather coming this means hammock reading which is always a good time.

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The Writer’s Life: Got the Room to Write


April 23 is Shakespeare’s birthday, which falls around the time in my blog schedule in which I voice some thoughts about the writing life. I’m in the midst of reading different biographies of Shakespeare, while juggling a few writing projects. In the middle of all this I feel fortunate I have a room of my own in which to write, unlike some women writers my reading has uncovered.

Man in historical clothing smiling at a birthday cake with candles and inscription 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY W.S. - 1599' in a warmly lit tavern.

First of all, what I’ve uncovered about Shakespeare:

My reading has added to what is known about Shakespeare with some additional sidenotes. For instance:

Robert Greene casts a snide asperity upon Shakespeare by referring to him as an “upstart crow” in 1592. This is supposedly the first verified appearance of Shakespeare in London. Greene died shortly after that verbal attack. Hmm.

Prior to his London debut, it’s well-known Shakespeare married Anne Hathaway in 1582, became a father in 1583 and again in 1585. His only son, Hamnet, died at age 11. Several facts came to light about his family, such as his father sliding into financial ruin, several of his siblings dying young, his shrewd real estate purchases. Sifting information held within the plethora of tomes about Shakespeare, a few nuggets come sparkling forth. 

  • He was a profound businessman, buying houses and acreage to pad his retirement funds. Let alone that he went from a nobody London hopeful to a respected playwright, actor, and part owner of the most popular theatre in London.
  • He visited Stratford more than people give him credit for, allaying the idea he forsook wife and family for the glittering lights of London. It’s recorded he stayed at The Crown Tavern, an inn owned by the Davenants. He became so close to the Davenants that paternity rumors swirled about, mostly by the Davenant’s son who (it is thought) wanted to grab a bit of Shakespeare fame.
  • He helped arrange a marriage between his landlord’s daughter, and her father’s apprentice, and later appeared in court concerning a domestic matter, namely the nonpayment of the daughter’s dowry.
  • His acting troupe performed at both Queen Elizabeth I’s and James I’s court numerous times, becoming the most successful among the numerous players in London.
  • With his success Shakespeare was able to purchase a coat-of-arms, something his father had wanted, which made him a gentleman, earning him the title of “Mr. Shakespeare.”
  • He outlived all his brothers, and regarded his last surviving sister, Joan, well enough to provide her and her family the means to stay in the cottage he owned after his death. 

As fascinating as Shakespeare is, how interest in him continues, as in the adaptation of Maggie O’Farrell’s Hamnet, there is a new focus on the Stratford bard through his sister Joan. It has recently come to light that a religious tract was found hiding in the rafters of Shakespeare’s family home. Signed “J. Shakespeare” it was once attributed to John Shakespeare, the father; however, new research is learning towards Joan, Shakespeare’s younger sister, being the probable author. This indicates the following:

  • She was literate during a time women did not receive a formal education. 
  • She felt strongly enough about her Catholic beliefs to put them to paper in an era when papists (as they were called) could be severely persecuted.
  • More attention is needed in learning about Shakespeare’s sister who lived to be 77 years old, quite a feat thousands, since so many died of ailments ranging from simple infections to the devastating plague.

    As for my recent thoughts about writing, as prompted by the recent discovery about Joan Shakespeare Hart:


    Virginia Woolf created an interesting premise about Shakespeare’s sister with her classic feminist essay “A Room of One’s Own,” exploring the relationship of women and creativity. It did not end well for Shakespeare’s sister in Woolf’s story; on the other hand, it did for the real sister. Joan married, had four children, lived a long life, and was favored by her successful brother. More than that, the discovery that she authored a tract, and is receiving notice some 400 plus years after it was written, shows she has earned a name for herself as a writer.

How many other creative works of sisters, wives, daughters will be found that have just been waiting for credit and discovery? In the meantime I will plonk away in my own little room, thankful I don’t have to hide my efforts in the roof timbers.

Woman in historical clothing writing a letter with a quill pen at a wooden table

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